OhHaiConnor

So I will fill the void.

So,for me to be blogging at 5:10 AM you must be wondering,"Gee,Connor,why are you up so late?"

Let me be the first to say this is not the per usual insomnia,or the boredom or anything typical to prevent my sleep.

This is built up emotion,fears and everything on earth tumbling down on my heart at once.

Without sounding like I'm crying out too loudly,I'd just like to say.

i don't know how much more i can take.

everything is becoming increasingly difficult for me,it's weird too,because it seems the more shit that happens,the more it drags me down,not just emotionally,physically and all that shit,but I truly believe lately my spelling and grammar,and general response time to intelligence bound questions have all gotten worse.

all I've really wanted over the past year is for just one thing to happen,one thing.

I would do EVERYTHING in order for this to happen.

Unfortunately,you can't force people into doing things they don't want,otherwise i'd be loved,rich and well respected.

This is really a lot of babbling but it feels good to type it out,let's see if i can end it with something clever,probably not.

If there's one thing I've taken away in the past year,it's that as much as you're willing to give,there has to be something to take.

Otherwise you end up right here,every time.